Made me Cry Friday

His wife's journal. He shouldn't read it, but he can't help himself. 

The Journal

MsEm  

This is a first for me. I've reviewed "Made me laugh" and "Can't walk away" over and over again, but never "Made me cry". I steer clear of the angst. I'm a total fluff and HEA girl. I mean really don't we have enough angst in our everyday real life that we don't  need to taint our little Fanfic fantasy bubble. The romance, the perfect man, how life is suppose to be. That's why I read it. For a few minutes while I'm reading everything is perfect. Last week my curiosity got the better of me, there were a couple of stories that looked really good, but they were angst.I decided to pull up the big girl panties and dive in head first. Although this story tore my heart open from the first paragraph I loved reading it.


The story starts out with Edward finding his wife's journal. For the last couple of years the marriage has been slowly deteriorating. Edward has always blamed Bella. She was  pulling away from him and nagging him. Edward decides to read the journal curious to find out whats happening from Bella's prospective. He was not prepared for what he found. Bella was seeing a therapist and has been prescribed antidepressant's. She is depressed and lonely and lost. He finds out that she knows about his affair. She has become trapped in hopeless and despair. She is in a downward spiral and even has had thoughts of suicide. He realizes that he has been selfish and neglectful of his marriage. He realizes he should have paid more attention. Maybe he could have prevented things getting so bad.

Out of irrational anger, he starts thinking, and almost believing, that she is solely the one to blame for his affair and her depression. It's her fault. She stopped talking to him, touching him, making an effort. In the back of his mind, he knew it wasn't just her. He knew he didn't make half the effort she had when they started drifting apart.

This story definitely deserves a tissue warning. The story is told from a third person's prospective, so it switches back and forth between Edward and Bella. I got so engrossed in this fic that I starting feeling their agony and deep hurt and pain these two are causing each other.

Looking at her closely, he takes in how fragile she looks and just how much his past actions have taken a toll on her. Even though she's not looking at him, he can still see every ounce of the heartache and sadness her eyes hold in them.
Gently, he brings her into him by wrapping his arms around her shoulders, whispering near her ear, "I'm sorry… I'm so sorry."

 I cried several times through this story, wondering if it was possible that they can ever find their way back to each other. You can feel the deep love they have for each other, but after everything that has happening is it possible to repair something so....broken? This story is a WIP ,so that question still remains to be seen.

Find a quiet spot and grab some tissues and read "The Journal".

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